so the other evening,sam and i were chatting,and sam mentioned that my appearance (the tattoos and the hair namely) may be deceiving to people that don't know me (which is most people).it made me wonder how i come across to people on a daily basis?i mean,i know how i look to the random idiots on the street,because they actively tell me.all the time.and it's really annoying.their ignorance and plain lack of manners really gets to me.but unfortunately i don't think it will ever change,people are just too set in their ways.and unfortunately it seems to rub off on their spawn!
but besides all the hassle i get,i wonder what people think i'm like?i think that most likely my image could mislead people.i may have big hair,lots of tattoos and wear black...but i'm a quiet homebody at heart!i love nothing more than staying in with my boyfriend and our boys (the doglets),crafting and watching a good film.my ideal night out would be going to see a film.i do drink but not a lot these days,i've never smoked or took drugs...i'm actually quite dull.but does my appearance tell people this?i'm not sure.
i really do hope that people don't look at me and think i look miserable or intimidating because i guess my image is a little eyecatching and 'gothic'!but it's how i want to be,i don't rebel in any other ways so i guess the way i look is my rebellion.but even as i am writing this,this doesn't ring true for me,as i don't dress to rebel against others/the norm,i dress for me.
as a heavily tattooed young woman,you'd think i'd like sites such as suicide girls or godsgirls.i really don't.people say these sites empower women,and show that tattooed women are just as sexy or good to look at.i personally think they give the wrong impression of tattooed women.just because a woman is tattooed doesn't mean she has to show them to the world!it's weird because all 'normal' looking women aren't thought of in the same light as porn stars/'glamour models'.but tattooed women seem to get tarred with the same 'alternative porn' brush.like for example,burning angel...i guess it's good that the tattooed community has 'tattooed porn' but to me,i'm just not into it.don't get me wrong,i'm not against porn or nude modelling...there's so many worse things in the world (i guess before you start look into the seedy underbelly of the porn industry)...but i just find it cliched and boring.and i don't want tattooed women to all get put in the same category.
i think in short,i'm just trying to say,i'm pretty dull.i don't party.i don't go wild much.despite what i might look like.
*apologies for the extremely self-centred post,it was just something i was thinking about!